@shibao@theorytoe Masculinity does not make you any less female. This is a falsification, that, you "have to feel like the gender you are". You simply are the gender you are, which in all honesty, has minimal application outside of physical exertion/build differences.
@shibao@theorytoe@f0xeveryone has aspects of both sexes in their minds/personalities/souls, and to me it seems like it's pretty independent of physical sex (once you know what you're looking at). you are not broken or wrong in any way.
@shibao@theorytoe@f0x do you think you clash with what the world wants from you? with who/what you yourself wish you were? do you wish you had more "yin" energy? or do you feel like others expect it?
@shibao@theorytoe@f0x yeah I know how much it can suck, feeling out of place like that, not really belonging anywhere, like you just stick out. in that regard I'm in the same boat as you; sorry I can't be more helpful than that. all I can say is that being "spiritually male" doesn't sound like something that necessarily needs to change in and of itself.
do you at least have an idea of what you want? like what an acceptable end goal for you would look like?
@shibao@theorytoe@f0x you have any concrete ideas on how you'd like to go about that? maybe get into like some kind of expressive artistic stuff? what aspects of "yin" you'd like to have at your disposal?
@shibao@theorytoe@f0x rofl well, if you think sitting in a hole is gonna help. maybe, idk.
do you have any pets? I raised a litter of kittens that showed up in my basement, and I think that uh-- awakened stuff in me I didn't really consider before. nurturing type shit. maybe something like that'd be useful?
@shibao Minnesota has plenty of feminine men who will make you a good husband (maybe). Bonus is range days with some weird fediverse fudd and his retard wife
@shibao what does that even mean though, and I'm saying this as someone who gets accused of being male because of my hobbies, typing style, and mannerisms.
@shibao@f0x@theorytoe I don't think that's something you're making up in your head. I had a similar upbringing growing up in the church, adopted by pastors, and I always felt that way around my female friends and later learned I do indeed have masculine mannerisms and an androgynous vibe from my friend who is a masc.
Even when I dressed feminine I felt like I was in a costume. I'm not trans or anything but it didn't fit my vibe if that makes sense.