fix ur poor work habits or get fucked, honestly.

@snacks @aj doing that is a great way to get burned out

@mischievoustomato @snacks im having a hard time with adhd

@aj @snacks sugs

@aj @snacks @mischievoustomato my solution to what i suspect are adhd symptoms is an excessive amount of caffeine in the form of coke and doing fun stuff. interestingly i never have adhd for actual work just for stuff i need to do for myself with no benefit to others and no reward in sight

@mischievoustomato @snacks whats happening is im reading, opening worksheets that end up making another tab, do a little, then see theres questions for the unit, hold off, then proceed reading, then theres a link to a book, open that, read the part i need but keep the tab open just incase i need to reference it for my WORKSHEET THAT I LEFT OPEN AND THEN I LOST MY PROGRESS AND MY PLACE FOR EVERYTHING all bc of poor practices fml

@mischievoustomato @snacks im not even going o proof read this bc its too long for my own attention span sorry

@meso @aj @snacks I'm different on this, I usually either leave stuff til the last minute (uni stuff, but have been fixing this), or out of nowhere i hyperfixate on something and work on it until it's dealt with or i hate an unpassable (for that moment) obstacle, and usually this means sleeping at 4am

@aj @snacks you'd probably do better by using multiple browser weindows, and having a little part on your notebook that tries to relate everything, like a tree

@mischievoustomato @aj @snacks idk you seem pretty good at it you make music or computer stuff that you just casually mention and dont elaborate on so it sounds like you do a lot with zero effort into not getting distracted

@aj @mischievoustomato @snacks i was extremely distracted and not feeling well when i set up asbestos but today im good i had two coffees and did some irl work so I'm motivated. muhosransk is also very beautiful today

it's interesting that I feel like my brain is comfortable being unmotivated and not doing anything, it's content with misery. I can just do these things but I don't. I think if I just do them I won't have ADHD. Maybe I just don't have ADHD and I'm just a lazy retard I prefer this outcome to having to do meth for the rest of my life

@aj @mischievoustomato @snacks im gonna go out to buy more coke before my motivation dies

@meso @aj @snacks it depends, and since you asked:
- music production: During the volume normalization phase, which is post recording, I work on the thing a little, then do other stuff, then resume working on the thing, because it's very exhausting and annoying. When I'm putting effects, which is post-volume-normalization, I get more into it, but often times, like now, I will still browse the fedi because that's how I am. It increases the time spent, but I am comfortable at least.

- computer stuff: since this is more interesting/involved for me, I usually just fixate on it. Recently I had to make a Windows 11 VM to get a thing to make a game run under linux, but then got issues with other things and the whole ordeal took til 3am, but did result in the game running. And I've also fixed 2 bugs on programs, of which 1 pr is already merged on nixpkgs, and the other needs another approval (FOR THE LOVE OF GOD ONE ALREADY APPROVED IT WHERE IS THE OTHER PERSON)

@mischievoustomato @aj @snacks but yeah i also get hyperfixated randomly and it ends with having to sleep at a very late hour it always pisses me off because the next day i have no motivation to work on it and the project goes cold. i think some kind of routine would fix this because if I get things rolling and comfortable for my brain there's no reason to zone out but I'm not a routine guy that must be the autists' key

@meso @snacks @mischievoustomato okie, ill try having another energy drink. i have this for everything that lasts more than a few minutes its crippling. worse the older i get tbh

@meso @aj @snacks AND TO PROVE IM NOT BULLSHITTING

@mischievoustomato @aj @snacks creative stuff is something i dont have any adhd bullshit on, i think i just dont have adhd and hate computers because computers are honestly the only thing i get distracted on

@meso @aj @snacks something i've found that helps focus is making a list. I have a whiteboard, and if I want to focus on something on specific, I write it there. I'll see it every time I sit on my desk, so, I always know.

@aj @snacks @mischievoustomato ive never drank energy drinks cuz i dont like the taste, im pretty much addicted to coke sugar so

@mischievoustomato @aj @snacks i would write stuff on a whiteboard but its some very vague stuff like *feature name* and im like "Weeeeeeeeell now lets think about how to implement it" and i just get distracted

@meso @aj @snacks i dont drink them because i dont have a need for them, aside from the time my stomach was upset and i couldnt even eat anyuthing and felt like dying

@mischievoustomato @aj @snacks id honestly rather grind car paint down or disassemble car parts than do anything on a computer

@meso @aj @snacks backup notebook, annotate ideas on it, I have multiple ideas.txt files where I detail stuff

@aj @mischievoustomato @snacks they taste extremely aspartamey but the smell is even worse

@meso @aj @snacks alright. I like computers because of NixOS and because I've pretty much used them since I was 6

@mischievoustomato @aj @snacks i fucking hate computers ive used them since i was 3 and i hate the things i am too good at them and getting good at anything else takes too long so

@meso @aj @snacks i have the blessing/curse of not really getting interested in other things

@meso @snacks @mischievoustomato you know i think i have heard ppl say caffiene has helped them w/ adhd. ur onto something.
for sure prefer lazy. i think my brains so used to chaos that if not more than 10 things are going on i feel unproductive. and i have a bad habit of gauging my day good/bad at the end of the day based on productivity. my time used to not be so important

@aj @snacks @mischievoustomato i gauge my day good or bad on whether im happy with the day or not and usually im not. usually comes down to some nice social interaction or something nice i did

@aj @mischievoustomato @snacks like if someones unexpectedly nice to me its surprising how much it lifts my mood for the rest of the day

@mischievoustomato @snacks true true, then i wouldnt mess them all up at once.
moving forward ill start using a Word to write my submissions, copy/paste them into the worksheet when I have all the answers.

@meso @snacks @mischievoustomato ur talking red normal cokes right

@meso @snacks @mischievoustomato the gauging of days should probably end,,,, probably not good for the nog

@aj @snacks @mischievoustomato no. they taste good. i mean energy drinks taste bad, like i cant stand being within 10 feet of a monster can. or especially hell cans. redbull is probably the same. idk what they add but its extremely pungent

@aj @mischievoustomato @snacks i should probably switch to coke zero tho... i'm sure macrodosing 11% sugar concentrate will take its toll on my body at some point

@meso @snacks @mischievoustomato i was just making sure you were talking about coke the soda and not coke the nose candy , you never kno

@meso @snacks @mischievoustomato very cute

@aj @snacks @mischievoustomato o yea. i like the way coke tastes a lot is all. surprisingly tastes a lot like really off-tasting synthetic lemonade when it degases

never tried the nose candy, we wanted to do it with maija but friendship fell through and we never met up (thank god)

@meso @snacks @mischievoustomato maija would.

@meso @aj @snacks that's unfortunate

@meso @aj @snacks pretty much same here

@aj @snacks @meso it's natural, though

@aj @meso @snacks update

@meso @aj @snacks @mischievoustomato you should be thankful if you came to latvia to meet tom me and my friend were going to beat your ass

@aj @meso @mischievoustomato @snacks trve

@meso @aj @snacks @mischievoustomato i know you said thankful we fell out though which was later

@meso @aj @snacks @mischievoustomato i would have liked it, its been a while since i attacked somebody justifiably

@mischievoustomato @aj @snacks @meso he crossed too many lines and has to always go out his way to shittalk me even still because he is obsessed

You had a Great Tab Reset

@mischievoustomato @aj @snacks @meso he wont let that happen, i dont shit on him lately any more than i always have

@meso @aj @snacks @VIPPER @mischievoustomato nah ur just obnoxious i'll still beat your ass over the dm shit i blocked u for in july or wtv though that was way over the line faggot
but yknow i beat your ass once or twice and i think we're even then, maybe go hit up some bars after that

@maija @aj @snacks @VIPPER @meso @mischievoustomato pennis and also dicke n balse

@meso @aj @snacks @VIPPER @mischievoustomato also ur gay