walked the little doggy

@geistigbehindert im a little bit bi but only in theory not in practice. ive never fallen in love with a cis guy

@graf @lord_nougat thats still a lot given how we dont talk that much

@graf @lord_nougat you gotta stop harping on the tummy thing im not an attention whore anymore. if and when i get fit again i wont post pics. also im only looking for one God (the Supreme Lord) and He already talks to me in various ways. i dont worship any small gods.

God isnt merely immortal, He/Shes beyond time completely, and self-existent.

a stupid fucking wasp was really into me and kept crawling on me and pinching me like it was trying to eat me. it kinda hurt, though not as much as a sting ofc

@graf maybe some day youll change your mind. hindus worship one God that can take many forms, just like Christians worship one God in three persons

i do not like when hindus describe the dreaming state as merely the creation of the mind from mental impressions from the subconscious and from past lives. that makes it seem less real than the waking state when its just usually more transient and less universal. i believe that much of dreaming sleep (svapna) is created by impressions but that it also is a window into universal/divine archetypes through the intuition. God often sends messages in dreams. i should note that my understanding of dreams is pretty half-baked, just like my understanding of intuition.

when God saved my life it felt like a blissful warm inside me that brought me back to sanity. this warm later manifested as feeling like i was sunbathing and like i was loved by a benevolent presence. theres much more to this story but ill be brief here.

my sister had a near-death experience that felt very much like my numinous experiences and i dont think thats a coincidence. she described it as falling asleep within the sunshine with no pain (she has chronic pain), which also reminds me of sushupti aka dreamless sleep because she said it was like dreamless not dreaming sleep and that she had no consciousness of her body and that she was happy. (people are usually totally unconscious in dreamless sleep but in hinduism the jiva is believed to experience bliss in dreamless sleep, but is ignorant of this bliss upon waking.)

because dreamless sleep also called prajna by the mandukya upanishad is characterized by not having a mind or antahkarana and as characterized by ignorance like in waking and dreamless sleep (it is not the fourth state turiya) my sister now seems to think that death is absorption into complete nothingness, which is wrong ofc.

of course others thought this experience had mundane explanations like oxygen deprivation, i dont believe this is true.

settled on the nokia 225 4g from 2020

i have a lot to do -.-

man i had a good 7ish years on the moto x4. it dominated my life, it was google-free (except gmail on web), rooted, and riced. i never once updated it. but its "quirks" became totally unmanageable with time.

had sister and nana over for days but now theyre both gone. time to get stuff done? wrong. time to study the upanishads and then waste time at the clubhouse because getting out makes my mom feel better.

need to look for a temporary dumbphone now that a tear in the back of the screen rendered the bottom half or so of the screen unusable

zzz

cat corndog and dog hotdog back to back, what does this mean

@N33R @paula8 my boobs only hurt when I was a kid and when my cat stepped right on them

smh I think I may want the jolla phone well see if the commodore callback whitelisty shit is hackable if its not ima have to sell it xC

one of them only squeaks the truth...