hoes sad

feeling tired and sad, wanted to do a bit of work on a project today but I dont think I can

cheerio time

need creme broolie

hoes happy

Hoes mad cuz im eating my fruits and veggies

I was up almost all night last night chain-sucking lifesavers like a madman. now my tongue is all raw.

speaking of fringe theories theres this one jordanian guy who thinks ancient israel was originally in Arabia and the Israelites were arabians.

prosciutto addict

if israel thinks that palestinian refugees and their descendants will lose their desire to return with time they are very wrong... and they just need to look at their own example. palestinians have been subject to atrocities and forced to live in camps for being palestinian not just in israel/palestine but in Lebanon, Jordan, and Syria. their persecution by israel and even by fellow arabs strengthens their national identity and theyll likely want to live with other palestinians who share that identity and that other-ness, just like the jews did. the arabs of bilad al-sham (formerly the diocese of the east, which includes palestinians, jordanians, syrians, and lebanese) were originally one nation, but no more. the palestinians have been made into the jews of the arabs, and I'm not the first to say that.

new blog post! https://lina.sh/blog/ddos-honeypot

i stumbled across a secret fake DDoS-as-a-Service website ran by the dutch police, and when i started digging into it, they panicked and shut it down
really funny story, if anyone is interested how such a fake website looks like, take a read ^^

little meow meow

veganism is when i eaty it.. .vegeable

earlier today I had a dream while likely having just fallen asleep, but while seemingly awake. I heard a cat meowing and felt a cat jump on my bed. I imagined it was charlie who I forgot was dead and that my sister (he was her cat) was living with us for a while, and eyes half open stuck my hand out for him to approach. when i he didnt come I looked up and he was in the window and it was sammy. when next I looked the window was fully open with light pouring through and to the side into the room. sammy was gone. when I woke up it was as if no interruption in consciousness had taken place, just like when I fell asleep.

addicted to weed (seaweed). its not medicinal.

I dont know how I feel about the existence of a subsidiary primary creator deity of each individual universe like brahma is said to be. I'm inclined to reject it out of monotheism while accepting that devas and progenitors (prajapatis, not to be confused with brahma who is also called prajapati or the vedic prajapati) can be creative in a smaller sense, but it does help explain evil in the world if the primary creator was a flawed being subject to maya. its kinda weird how in the hindu trinity (which I take with a grain of salt as a systemized thing also) sustainer/preserver and destroyer/transformer are both regarded as Supreme and timeless in their own right, but not the creator hiranyagharba who has his 100 "years". idk, even if there is a brahma who is firstborn and highest of all created beings (though hes called self-created in a sense in early texts), he is taught to create by the Supreme Lord who is also his soul and whos will presides over his and every other action.

I'm feeling a lot better for partly fucked up reasons. because I lost a friendship I can finally stop grieving it being a source of stress and heartbreak for the last two years, and can also (with proper cognitive dissonance) more easily imagine it will be better again than I could when all I had to go by was its own languishing existence.