the message of my last two dreams was to trust the Devi. I failed to trust her both times -_-

in the last one I thought she was a demon or a witch who wanted to take advantage of me with an agreed obligation of life-long loyalty to her, despite her being the Devi in a prior dream with continuity. it was her request for me to be her lifelong lowly servant that made me think she was evil, because she didnt seem to want me to do any good deeds to change the world that God has previously told me were in my future and just wanted to make me work as a slave so that I'd never ever see the outside of her "lair" again. so when I said I wouldnt stay she then pretended to be a demon and took a bite out of my arm. it then healed miraculously. I said "Thank God" thinking I had the siddhi of healing and a voice that was her voice said in my head "Thank Me." I realized that she was the Devi and i didnt actually want to leave her lair, all i wanted in life was Her. I told her that. the voice said "I want nothing more to do with you". then all of my reality glitched into nothing. Because She was the Devi. yeah... its a bit more complicated and meaningful than that but basically I thought I didnt want to live as a mere slave to an unknown magic woman so when i got healing powers I thought I had made the right choice before God. but it was the wrong one, I chose a single miracle over a lifetime in humble service to the Goddess. trust the Devi!!

@risperdoll