@vriska @graf your life in saipan is worse than bad weather and living in a country with bad politics and it just got significantly worse. you said I know more about your situation than others do and youre correct, thats why I'm constantly worried about you. the reason I press you about moving back is because
1. I care about you and your existence which is pure suffering
2. I worry about your mom having no one and having to die alone in hospice
3. I blame myself almost entirely for you moving
4. I believe your decision not to move back is motivated mostly by you convincing yourself that your life would be worse here because of insignificant things like that its cold outside and trump is president, but you lived in chicago winters for your entire life and also lived here under trump.
now you saying your mom doesnt want you back is something youve not told me, I dont know why you wouldnt considering its importance but I believe you.