@thestrongest @pernia and ugh i wouldn't say i did it to please my friend (who was only like 7 months older to be honest), though the other kids i was mean to (throwing pinecones at them and stealing their backpacks, and they never told their parents somehow and kind of looked up to me??? in part because of my spontaneous songwriting styles, i made up songs on the bus ride) was 100% following the bidding of a kid who was two years older than me (he later came out as gay, coincidence??) but i certainly wouldn't have had the courage to say it if not for another kid. i was still kind of cowardly cause now that i remember more clearly, we weren't actually addressing her, just singing the song near hear in her direction knowing she'd know it was about her. but i told my mom it wasn't about her.