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what's the point in being in a relationship where only you care if it ends anyway. last two years were the biggest waste of my time in my entire life
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@georgia in the grand scheme of things they're all a waste of time because they'll all end eventually skullspin
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@nyx this is why only actions that contribute to enlightenment matter
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@georgia you're not supposed to agree with that angsty adolescent pseud take
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@nyx @georgia nahh girlbrah its all about entightenment philosophy now... im trying to chill while hitting a sick wave off the vibes… chaaaa like dont ruin it with the progress of reason stuff buhdee.
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@nyx see, following dharma contributes to enlightenment as long as you arent attached to the fruit so I consider selfless kindness to always be worth it. unfortunately neither of us were selflessly kind anymore. it became loveless and transactional, and she was in the red.
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@georgia@netzsphaere.xyz You shouldn't care too much about people, you'll always find yourself on the giving side and never the taking side if you put any self worth there, whereas if you just focus on what you're doing and let people come and go without attaching, the quality of people you around will be better.

Parasites love someone who attaches and there are a lot more of them than there are altruists.

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@apollo in the beginning I was the altruist and she was needy, then we were both needy but I was needier, then we were briefly happy and both genuinely selflessly loved eachother, then she was the altruist and I was the parasite but still loved her, but for the past two years its been a transactional loveless relationship with me largely giving and her largely taking, me expressing periodic bitterness at this arrangement, and her getting mad at me for confiding my bitterness in others, even accidentally.
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@georgia@netzsphaere.xyz I don't know what to say. When I was a younger man I always wanted lots of attention but these days my gf's usually stalk my Internet presence and complain that I'm complaining about Latin and Palantir when we haven't hung out in 2 weeks (I forgot)

Either way it's probably best to just not care.

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