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sick of hearing about dick and balls and various other perversions
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@georgia im not sick of hearing about perversions in principle i just think everyone else has bad taste and am generally not fond of genitalia

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@lizzie I just wish fedi was more wholesome. so much talk about sex here is penetration centered or sadomasochistic.
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@georgia @lizzie

Penetrative sex is inherently sadomasochistic for men.
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@georgia @lizzie i have never done penetration sex
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@georgia i donโ€™t feel like im in a place to judge anyone else bc ive hornyposted on here quite recently but the general preoccupation with penetration seems kinda boring at best abd unpleasant at worst

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@georgia @lizzie fr we need more holding and kissing going on. Perchance a cuddle or two as well.

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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

I also love cuddles, headpats, and zappy zaps.
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@georgia @lizzie eventually you stop feeling the pain or a discreet sense of Identity which is nice
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@lizzie @monkey @georgia

gorty mcgortysen. my brainworms made me do it.
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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

I'm the purest sweetest maid, would any of you like some tea?
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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

is okay~! I censored it.
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@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey i will say i think starting any kind of rp in the replies of a gort about how fedi is too horny is probably not desired

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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

I wasn't gonna make it horny, but I see your point.
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@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey yeah thats why i specified any kinda rp. just really contextually out of the blue

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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

My thinking was, "let's prove we can be wholesome!" but it wasn't something I let on. Sorry about that.
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@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey your propic and new nick plus the mdni nsfw really gives off a different vibe
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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

Should I change it?
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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

there, different picrew and errrything
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@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey your choice but personally i think you shouldnt make your whole online persona revolve around erp. youre a more multifaceted person than that and it seems like very much a reaction against your former religious mores. I think youll find what's right for you in the end whatever that is.
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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

does this look better?
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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

they weren't really mine so much as I joined something hoping to make friends and they manipulated me into accepting their ideals.
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@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey just my opinion but I think it would be good for you to stop looking for external validation or new external rewards or changes in external circumstances so much and to really look within yourself and find joy in your own being
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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

it legitimately messed with my head, and post-cult, I'm doing 5 therapy sessions a month and watching cult-deprogramming videos on youtube, and eating pork. and committing mala prohibitum haraam things so I can take my power back.
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@georgia @technicallydifficult @monkey im ngl this talk of pfps is making me think about how much i love pylgia

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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

is that the blue girl you had before?
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@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey pylgia is my current pfp but i dont remember having a blue girl before

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@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey wait i think i had a chiefLurk pfp for a while is that who?

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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

before that, like a year ago I think?
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@georgia @monkey @technicallydifficult different image of chief sheโ€™s in disguise here but im lazy ๐Ÿ˜ญ

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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

kawaiiiiiii <3
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@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey i went gris main character -> lain -> coral glasses (several years) -> pylgia with mask -> chief -> pylgia no mask (with some switching back and forth in the chief/pylgia transitions)

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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

maybe it was apophis-chan?
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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

no, it's saved as "lizzie" in my compooter
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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

the blue girl
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@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey you can tell bc she never takes off that earring

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@georgia @monkey @technicallydifficult it seems like the earring is actually spiritually part of her

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@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey its chiefLurk in her usual outfit instead in a blue place while kinda merged with 000โ€™a power (i love calling 000 xenospace pythoness bc its fun and technically correct but im not doing that here bc im boring)

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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

you're not boring!
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@georgia @technicallydifficult @monkey i have no clue but some blue power comes out of it in the fight against shin alongside pylgia right after god says the blue is part of chief as much as the red (shackles). also even when chief is a disembodied soul, that soul is always wearing her earring. whenever an immortal sees her soulโ€™s earring they instantly see her as a child since thats how they new her as an embodied soul. the path of doom crimebrand shows her with two earrings but we never see the other outside of it.

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@georgia @monkey @technicallydifficult oh also when chief is kinda dying before that fight, her earring glows in the dark (as her earrings glow in path of doom)

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@georgia @monkey @technicallydifficult also path of doom seems to be her as a child killing the adults who trusted her

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@lizzie @technicallydifficult @monkey its just more interesting lol I normally group all that stuff together but it seems pretty unique for a gacha
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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

It does seem to have more story to it... touhou's main deal is the cute chara.
- said as an og touhoufag
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@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey ptn writers have too much time. theres a thing where real estate investors are spreading racist propaganda to manipulate land prices outside of discity and its a footnote besides the fact that they want to kidnap elvira stewart bc they heard whispers she might be politically disruptive

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@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey ehh its not just a footnote ig bc it shows how bad discityโ€™s political rot is and introduces chiefโ€™s next enemy: rich chuds

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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

have I effectively murdered my chud persona yet?
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@georgia @monkey @technicallydifficult theyโ€™ll also do things like where its clear that lichen leads an emotionally abusive cult and using it to extract power from the belief of her followers (since the perishing star gives belief concrete power)

but despite all the freaky supernatural stuff lichen can do, the cult remains painfully tacky and financially extractive. its oddly realistic for how supernatural everything is (with some exceptions like oceanography being a lucrative career but i think that was mostly to further position shin as pylgiaโ€™s opposite since pylgia struggles to get a job. the other scientists are kinda broke and marguerite has to eat worms on tv to get money for her serious research)

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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

seems like cults are kinda everywhere these days.
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@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey i dont think anyone ever fully escapes their past. youve certainly murdered the perception that youre going to slide into social conservatism soon, but you were never not worthy of love, even at your most absorbed.

ive admittedly rebelled a bit against my evangelical past but the point is to really learn from our pasts

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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

I'm probably going to have to start ignoring my family again. They're mad at me for not accepting the prophet role thing, and were apparently praying for that to happen since I was a little kid, which explains a lot.
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@technicallydifficult @georgia @monkey darkness thats really not something you can thrust on someone let alone from birth

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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

yeah, well, I think they were motivated by money if I'm being honest, because they see how much money their pastor makes, where he can give away cars and rollex watches, and armani suits...
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@lizzie @georgia @monkey

And when I rejected it, they showed their true colors, where they got really mad and started yelling that I was going to hell for rejecting the "calling" even though I was preaching apokatastasis, and started saying I was ungrateful, and wasn't a true believer, and so on. And that's when it hit me, my parents are both trying to manipulate me into the role and have their own religious delusions.
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@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey youre kinda in the opposite position as me. my family doesnt believe in any of the mystical experiences ive had. akko_shrug
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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

I'd believe in your thing except that I don't wanna go delulu again, but I fully support your right to believe in it.
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@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey oh please dont worry about it the only thing that concretely supports me right now besides my own experiences is the matching mystical experiences of another who still barely believes my experiences and like five peoples divination results that line up very well with what God has told me. I dont expect anyone to believe me yet lol. but I think within a year or so it will be more clear when God radically changes my heart.
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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

you gonna start a cult?
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@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey I dont plan on starting a cult lol. my first thing will be dispensing a religious message through art.
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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

technically speaking, I could deliver my message without even making it religious. I would just have to be very careful to use a different way of explaining it. Like, the problem lies in the fact that religion is a major motivator and validator for older generations.

have you read the 16 page manifesto I put out while I was still religious? It's basically ethics, a call to action, and rules to build community. I could rewrite it to be secular pretty easily.

linky to the manifesto from when I was bonkers:
https://brain.worm.pink/notice/B4pjTnuJFb209ULPEW
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@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey I liked some of what you wrote but I disagree with mandating prophets and priests to have whatever neurological condition. honestly the way you describe yourself reminds me of the whole new age indigo children thing.
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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

I was delusional at the time. to be fair. And half of the reason for the autism side of that was that a lot of people who are related to us want bad things to happen to us, so this gave a religious reason that made autistic people sacred so we would be protected by the religion and not targeted for bullying or half-baked "cures". My parents repeatedly toyed with the idea of sending me to ABA boarding schools, special institutions for experimental therapies, and so on. I want to make the community so that such things would be unthinkable.
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@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey I get you. I'm autistic too. really sorry you had that experience
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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

Instead, they bootstrapped an Evangelicalized DIY version of ABA that I have never really healed from. Which, might be better or worse than the boarding school they had picked out, I don't know. Perhaps less violent at an actual place with government oversight and no religious bent. But you also hear horror stories about those so... eh.
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@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey the US regularly tramples on the rights of children. those awful forced labor wilderness retreats are one example
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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

Ahhh, you mean Teen Challenge? (Got threatened with that over bad grades)
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@technicallydifficult @lizzie @monkey there are lot of programs like it for kids who misbehave. they often get literally kidnapped from their bedrooms its so evil
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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

yeah, I know someone who went through it. After they got out of it, they suffered from such incredibly bad ptsd that they could only cope with heroin. I met them at my NA meetings that I went to while I was homeless as part of the prerequisite to get into a halfway house.
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@georgia @lizzie @monkey

I got secondary trauma from their story, and that is kind of next level, because I tend to think of the experiences of mine that give others second-hand trauma as humorous, and my actually bad stories are absolutely next level.
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